Mood:  irritated
I am at the point in time where I am frustrated, feel trapped and don't know what to do. I am with a man I love, but am worried about him and the way he treats himself at times. But, I know in order to help him I must first help myself. I went for a run and am just worried about these upcoming month(s) without my certificate number. I want to find work as a teacher and find peace of mind.

Purpose statement
Mood:  surprised
I am surprised by the life I lead, unsure about my near future and realizing the things in life that I used to do and enjoy I no longer do. The drive I had slowly diminished and I am not nearly as happy as I once was. So, here it is time for me to change it up. I am in the process as always this time of year-jumping ahead and making resolutions. I don't wait until the New Year because for me handling December is my true test of time. This time my blog is not only for the physical aspect of my life. Yes, I will keep myself accountable for that but rather the emotional and mental well-being as well. So be prepared for anything this time around. This is my diary at times and my food journal at times and also my fitness log. You will know my day to day life here. Good luck because at times it doesn't even make sense to me the life I now have, I need to find a balance and this is the only way I can think of how.